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Sometimes it’s hard for me to understand why someone would want to take their own life But in all honesty I feel the same way sometimes Most people only see the mask I keep painted on my face But that mask is only there so I can be accepted in this terrible place I’m tired of hearing girls complain about their weight But when you think about it, they complain because they honestly feel that way Have you ever stopped to look at someone walking down the street And think about what may be in their life and how they may struggle to eat? Or maybe they have to walk their daughter down the aisle in a casket rather than a white dress

If there’s one thing I’ve learned It’d be one thing I got right This world is something dangerous It’s always a constant fight Just because you say it's true Doesn't make you right You always say you’re praying When you’re just sleeping at night Love has wasted All the time we have to spend Money can't buy happiness As long as you still can bend You never see it coming when You're heart decides to break The torture and the rough play Has your heart placed on the stake Sometimes you want to end it Sometimes it's just too much But honey it's just the world saying It's ok to give up But don't let them get

Procrastination is my enemy Forever I'll wait Until the last second beckons me Procrastination is my friend We seem to always agree And I enjoy my time with him I promised my self I'd start at eight But it being 8:01, Procrastination says it's much too late I should really, honestly go But since I'm late anyway Procrastination and I will play And I'll just do it tomorrow

Where the light touches the earth On the border of imagination and reality In the clouds on a bright summer’s day That’s where you’ll find me Between the lines Within the substance of my tears Deep in the confinements of my heart That’s where you’ll know me In my raw emotions Within my smile Deep into my eyes That’s where you’ll love me In my own wonderous utopia That’s where you’ll find me most That’s where you’ll know me most That’s where you’ll hate me most

There’s one such a room A room of gold and silver walls I, undeserving of such place And yet still my name it shouts and calls My ignorance takes dominance My judgment left behind With only wonder, curiosity The room, I chose to find The room is a dark place No promises made it kept With only loud voices shouting Whilst I only wept Forever, it seems, I was in that room Before I found the cure But the cure, being intangible How to obtain it, I wasn’t sure There I stayed, in the room Until light found its way And so it saved me from my death For my mistakes it paid

Up above where the night lights shine Each small smile forms a one of a kind All is calm in the midnight glimmer Ablaze is the hope in the form of a shimmer Up above where fire is absent Celebration is forever and ever present Just like none other, it continues on Wonderous is the hope in the form of a song Up above bound by a wooden shackle Little few shed a tear, but most simply cackle "It is finished" is said as the last breath Done is hope in the form of death Up above in the open air Where angel's skin is proven fair A reminder for all There's light for when you fall And always will be the One who cares

I find it hard to believe This is my life right now Knowing me, this will be My question why and how Loving blindly Trusting easily Hurting ‘round the clock It’s my new full-time job So I’m… Giving up Laying my things down Sometimes I feel like Locking myself inside And crying, keep crying Till the world around me disappears Blood stained clothes Tear filled eyes Insecure, not childlike Faith is crumbling ‘neath my feet So I’m Giving up Laying my things down Locking myself inside And crying, keep crying Till the world around me disappears When suddenly it all makes sense I’ll just ignore &lsq

My glitter is precious My glitter is pure My glitter can't define me But it makes one thing sure My glitter is one color One color it shall stay Until I find the perfect one And I shall mix them on that day My glitter is contained In a clear porcelain container It reflects light everywhere In a wonderful, delicate manner There it shall stay There it shall shine And in stormy weather I'll try not to let it hide Like a snowflake or a star One thing is certain My glitter will never be Anything close to perfection But day in and day out My glitter shall shine Shine brightly and beautifully For what I'm proud to call mine My glitter is prec